I suffered, like most rowers, the miserable, cold grind of it all on winter mornings. But at least I was there because I wanted to be. In Nadia’s case, being such a young girl from a totalitarian country that brooked no rebellion, the toll was far greater. She seldom smiled, they say she never cried, and at 15 she allegedly tried to commit suicide by drinking bleach, though she subsequently claimed it was shampoo and a “cry for help”.