In reality, of course, because any self-portrait done from life has to be worked from a reflection, eyes down proves pretty well impossible, particularly at a distance. Eyes up: Freud had to check constantly in the mirror across the room, then, with loaded brush or knife, face the easel. It would be better, he decided, to give himself a brush to hold rather than a palette knife; less flash, in effect, and, indeed, less likely to excite talk of fantasy sacrifice.