But the author of The Golden Notebook, who won the Nobel last year, declined. She wrote: "I am very pleased. But for some time now, I have been wondering, 'But where is this British Empire?'" Lessing who grew up in what is now Zimbabwe but was then Southern Rhodesia, added: "When young I did my best to undo that bit of the British Empire I found myself in: that is, old Southern Rhodesia." However, she ended: "And yet how pleasant to be a dame! Please forgive my churlishness. I am sorry, I really am."