Breaking the habit of a lifetime, she's dying to see it. Normally, she hates watching herself. 'It's like hearing yourself on tape, or seeing holiday snaps. All you can think of is: "Oh my God, look at me in that awful top." It's pure vanity, of course. I look at myself and I see this middle-aged woman, not the character.' It's also partly down to experience which has made her ever more self-critical. 'When I played Sandy in that first job, I knew the character was Scottish and I just did it. Now I'd want to know which part of Scotland, I'd get tapes and everything. When you're a kid, you don't know to be scared. Now I'm older, I'm more cautious, but more investigative.'