At the beginning she was floundering after the collapse of a long love affair. Feeling profoundly displaced from assumed certainties, she sought to rebalance herself through the space, solitude, beauty and the watery balm of a river she had known only in part for many years. As she explored the river's path, so her confusion was at times both intensified and ultimately relieved by the altering landscape around her. The river is threaded through her narrative like an explorer's guide-rope through a deep forest, the engulfing shifts in lightness, dark, density and openness reflecting Laing's changing emotions as they fluctuated from despair and tiredness to exhilaration and ultimately trust.